5 Years to Something

Ohh No, Here she is again.. How can no body else find this funny, a sixty something lady in my gym class wearing a G-string leotard? I could feel the laughter bubbling up inside, i tried to suppress it, being over tired doesn't help. cant believe I'm so immature, no one else thinks it's funny, besides it's rude to laugh at people.

Suddenly all the hilarity of the week just gone begins to flood my mind like a wave of funny stuff. The wedding we went to where the best mans name meant something a explicit in my native tongue "Finish". I couldn't help my little snicker and jolting when the minister said "#@*# pass the rings" or the emotional reception speech "We'll miss you #@*#". Managed to look like i was crying for that one by keeping my head in my sleeve and only raising it every now and then to say "how beautiful".

Nooo... Here it comes, Once again I burst out laughing in the middle of my gym class, sitting alone on my bench unable to hold the weight of my bar any longer, people must think I'm crazy or at least very rude. The instructor ignored my hysterical chants and continues with the class.

"right everyone, lets do squats, spread your legs.."

I love to laugh, it's one of the many things my parents have blessed me with, a good sense of humour. I come from a family of strong laughers. Even my grandma, who is serious at the best of times (you'll be lucky to catch a smile) laughs, she goes strait from stern to a hearty laugh to stern. We managed to catch her regular smile on camera last year, now just waiting for the opportune moment to bring out the picture. The down side to this is "the awkward situation laugh" I inherited from my mum; put me in a room of serious people and a serious situation and I'm almost guaranteed to laugh. Why? Well I don't really know, must be a defence mechanism or a nervous thing.

However I'm glad i can laugh, laughter sooths the soul, it's like a beautiful healing balm over a tired mind. Laughter takes you to a place where worries seem less and fond memories are made. Have you ever met people who don't laugh? I know some non laughers in fact i often wonder if they've ever really laughed. The kind of laughter that cant be switched of easily , childish uncontrollable laughter. These people just chuckle a little before going strait back to serious again, it's like they don't know how to laugh, they put on a fake, on Que for jokes or situations but just as easily as they bring it (chuckle) just as easily switched off. What a sad life without uncontrollable laughter. Search your funny side, humour is one of the many mysteries of life.

I'm a Mum of two beautiful girls and laughter flows even more freely now because most of the time I'm either over tired or just can't believe some of the ridiculous situations i find myself in. Most of the time with spew on my shirt or a run in my pantie hose. It's been a long and interesting road from Single to married to Mother. No one could have prepared me for motherhood, and while the following saying isn't true for every situation it's true for being a parent "you'll never ever know if you never ever go". It's a different world all together full of different emotions that cant be replicated in any other life situation. There's a new kind of love that can only be discovered when you have your own children, not to mention a new kind worry stress and frustration. But if you haven't had children yet don't be put off by that, the new dimension of love is the greatest feeling.

So.. for the next five years I've decided to commit myself to staying at home and looking after my girls till they start school. I am also going to use this time to try and start a business from home. I remember when i was younger, I used to say "I'll make my first million by 21", well that didn't happen so now pushing twenty five, I've changed my target to thirty. That gives me a little over five years. The world at the moment in 2009 is climbing out of the worst economic collapse, with most western countries in a bad recession, Australia reported to have dodged the recession with a positive quarter, I'm pretty sure it takes two negatives to officially be in recession, so that's a plus since I'm hailing from Australia at the moment. No better time to start then now with the world at rock bottom, it's only up from here. Plus many new opportunities and ideas come from the hardest of times.

Katri :)

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