Busy Dreams

So in an effort to keep myself networking I've been working on my social skills. I don't know about you, but I find it hard to talk about nothing, not 'nothing', but just the "general life chit chat". Never really sure what interests people. So the conversations go a little something like this;

Other person "Hi Katri, How are you?"

Me: "Yeh good"

OP: "What you been up too?"

Me "not much, you?"

OP: "oh I've been Busy"

So running through my mind is 'are you really interested, and if you are what are you interested in, do I tell you about the nappy I changed an hour ago, the assignment I just finished or the new pair of shoe I brought last week?'. However, give me a topic and I'm all hands on deck. Love topical conversations, lets discuss something. A long sigh of relief when someone says "did you read this in yesterday's paper", ah a topic, alright I can work with this, even if I know nothing about the topic, give me five minutes to form an opinion and full steam ahead lol.

I've also noticed that everyone is always Busy. People are always telling me how busy they've been and when I ask "what have you been doing" a lot of the time no one can remember what specifically makes them busy they just know they have been. I guess in a mums life women can feel like their always busy because you're always doing things but nothing specific, so when you reflect its kind of like "I don't really know where my day has gone, but I know it's gone", so I understand that. I guess I never feel like I'm busy, because I don't really understand what feeling like your busy is, I feel like I exist and I do things while existing, on full day I may have half an hour in the car where I'm just existing, or an hour for lunch etc, so what stands out to me when I reflect is all my free time, no matter how little that is so I always feel funny saying I'm busy, but it's a matter of perspective. I have recently adopted the 'I'm so Busy' mentality and its seems I'm on par with the world "I've been so Busy" get a more understanding response then my usual "Oh yeh i don't do that much" as long as no one asks "so what's been keeping you busy" then we're back to square one, do I tell them about the nappy's taking up my time or the classes I spent three hours in? And all I can think about is all the stuff I haven't been doing.

I am however very interested in other peoples lives, what drives them, how they've been, and all the nitty gritty details of every story. I love hearing people's visions and dreams for life. It seems everyone has so much to give and too little time to live. Some of the amazing ideas I hear, I wish I had a million to invest into every idea I hear. But it is hard to get something of the ground. To find the right support team to get your idea going. Sometimes all Dreams and Ideas aren't for straightaway, like a beautiful friend of mine recently wrote a book. When I asked her about the idea, she said she had the dream years ago but it wasn't time to do it then, and only recently dusted of the idea and felt the need to bring it out now and finish the dream. That's a good sure fire way of knowing something's a real passion, bury it for a while and if it's still pulling at your heart a year or two from now, you know it's a dream you just have to for fill.

So in between changing nappies and assignments I've been working on a little chunk of my dream, and a website (very slow learning), hopefully I'll have this little part done by the end of the year www.katri.com.au

So if your passionate about something go pursue that thing, even if you start just by writing down a few ideas and talking to someone about it.

Katri